Does anyone read my warblings?? I have just been reading Kelly's goings on in her life and thought "hmmm I could never write anything so interesting as that so no I'm guessing nobody every reads this" Please tell me I am wrong. I really should update more often too but having such a sad little life tells me otherwise.

I am having a real hard time right now with my church. It's not my faith (that couldnt be much more deeper) but more my church. Nothing against our minister but when you leave the church to go home and you cant remember what the sermon was about then yes thats a problem. Last weekend we visited a relatives church in Welland. A bit further to go but it would be worth it. It's not your normal everyday run of the mill church (Danny even wanted to know where the cross was outside the church) but is very contemporary and took me back to my Hillside days (man I miss those days) The building from the outside looks like a shed although it was once a school but once you go in it is like going into a completely different world. Worship is held in a huge gym like hall which reminded me of walking into a ballroom in a 5 star hotel. There are no pews but big round tables which you would find in a hotel ballroom. Thought I would have a hard time dealing with that but no I found it very inviting. The first 30 minutes was just pure worship singing which was more like a rock concert but half way through I suddenly realised the very good reason for doing it this way (other than praising the Lord obviously) It meant you could be late and nobody would be any the wiser!! Excellent idea #1. After 30 minutes they came around with the offering. This I think was the only thing I had a bit of an issue with because a) I had barely managed to drink my tea let alone get my purse out, find an envelope and write it out and b) Were we paying to listen to the sermon??? Still don't know what difference it makes by doing it at the start or the end of the service (Kelly, maybe you could answer that one for me please....when do you guys do it?) Then we had a five minute break (recess...excellent idea #2) and the kids went off to their groups. Danny and Rebecca were all for it considering they really don't know anyone there. Pastor Marc came on then and did an awesome sermon about prayer. They're just going into a week of prayer so it linked into that very nicely. He was talking about how new Christians find it hard to pray out loud and why. Ive only been a Christian for almost 6 years and still find it very difficult to pray out loud in front of people (other than one time at Juliet's in 2005 when I asked Him not to hit me over the head again when there was an issue He needed to get through to me....had to warn me to put a helmet on next time) I have no issue at all in doing it in my own private space although that was hard in the beginning trying to get past the fact of praying into thin air. I read about couples who pray together and I so wish me and Steve could do that but I guess both of us have our reasons. Thinking about it though I did pray the other day in the car with my friend for a sign as we were getting more and more lost in Hamilton. The sign came in the form of a QEW Niagara this way sign on the side of the road so there my first out loud prayer in public was answered in seconds!! So yes the sermon was definitely aimed at the likes of me thats for sure. Barbecue was then after the service to raise money to send the youth on their camping weekend next month. All very different to what I have been used to for the past year.

Now the next issue is how do I tell my other church that I am walking??? Hmmmm, thoughts for another day maybe.